Oh Little Star

OH LITTLE STAR

The last week or so has been pretty up and down for me emotionally. It's felt a bit like a whirlwind of sorts, and despite that buzz of adrenaline and possibility, I kind of want it all to stop spinning for just a second so that I can place my feet back on solid ground, clear my head, see straight. And I'm going to be honest dear readers and tell you that last night all this emotional upheaval completely took its toll on me and I just had to let it all out, have a good cry, get it out the system, think things through long and hard to try and find out why I was feeling the way I did, get to the root of the problem. I won't delve into what I realised, or what was causing the problem, but I will say that today I'm slowly picking up the pieces from the wake up call, and starting to feel a bit better about everything, which is a nice way to feel. However the reason why I'm writing this post is because last night whilst I had my moment, I tried to sort out all my tangled feelings and emotions by writing everything down, as I always do. Nothing too out of the ordinary, but when I read over what I'd written this morning, I was kind of shocked at how negative I had been towards myself. 

When you see all your thoughts written down on paper like that, it makes you realise the tone and direction of your thinking patterns and for me it made me realise how negative and awful I can be towards myself. I put myself down so easily, I'm so quick to criticise, crush my self esteem, forget my self worth, and honestly it kind of upset me to see how badly I can treat myself. In this world people are always going to hurt you, break you, trip you up, put you down, but if you're doing all those things to yourself, without the aid of someone else, and being the toughest critic of them all, then what hope do you really have? How on earth are you supposed to be happy, content, at peace? The world doesn't even need to bother with breaking you down if you're taking care of doing that yourself, but it really shouldn't be that way, and last night made me realise how crucially important it is to be nice to yourself, love yourself, take care of yourself. You don't stand a fighting chance at getting the life happiness you always wanted and deserved if you don't. It's so, so important to be good to yourself, think positive thoughts, be your own best friend not your own worst enemy. You need to constantly remember your self worth, protect your self esteem from the bullets of others or your own, and truly, truly believe that you deserve and will find happiness in every aspect of your life in which you wish to seek it. You really do deserve it and owe it to yourself. So this morning as I came to all these realisations, and I wasn't sure what to do about it all next, fix what needed fixing, I decided to write out my feelings again, but this time in a positive way. I wrote out this poem or song of sorts, called it 'Oh Little Star' and all the words came to me so easily, almost like they were meant to be said, and because it's helped me feel so much better about everything, I thought I'd share it with you and hopefully help you feel a little bit better about yourself and life too.

So thanks dear readers for reading this rambling, emotional, personal post, I hope you like what I've written below, and just remember to love yourself. It's so, so important <3

OH LITTLE STAR

Oh little star, oh you wanted to shine,

And that isn't wrong so please don't you cry,

Your spark is fading so quickly, it's dimming,

When instead you believed that this time you'd be winning.

You're slipping out of orientation,

I don't know where you're adventuring,

But it's not wrong to pine for more than that.

If you want to glow brighter you will one day soon

Make sure you place your trust in the light of the moon

On your own you're spinning wildly round and round,

Tumbling so quickly to the cold solid ground.

Resist the fall, relaunch yourself into the night,

You have to believe that you'll soon shine so bright.

Maybe aim higher than you ever did before,

Arch through the pain, allow yourself to soar,

Oh little star you're crumbling before my eyes,

Don't let this tumble be the root of your demise,

Twist and turn, rotate into the future's gaze,

Surrender yourself to the night, a glow in a flame,
Notice your glitter reflecting in the moonlight,

Don't dwell on your scars from a previous fight.

Oh little star your aching but it isn't all bad,

Don't forget this isn't the worse that you've had,

Oh little star you're far stronger than you seem,

You're nice and you're good and you're fuelled by your dreams,

Oh little star you will once again rise,

Ablaze in a spiral to the greatest of heights,

Oh little star you're going to dazzle them all,

Oh little star, believe me, you're the best of them all.